beyond understanding
I had several paragraphs written before I pushed delete. I seem to not know what to write these days.
I spend a lot of time trying to “figure” things out. I never can, not in the grand scheme of things anyway.
I want to know how my mind works, how other’s minds work, the whys and what fors.
I dig dig dig, and for what???
It occurred to me, that just maybe, some things are beyond my understanding for a reason, and that I am not supposed to understand.
When I am supposed to understand, I will, and there will be no need for me to try so hard.
In so much of what I do, teaching yoga or painting, I attempt to join opposites, to allow them to work together in union. I have to work with my analytical mind and also with my emotions. I have to see and feel, watch and listen. I have to work with diligence, and I have to learn how to let go.
There is no absolute reality, only perception, and yet something bigger exists. I definitely believe this, and I feel a bit of relief, that I don’t have to figure it out today.
July 13th, 2008 at 10:42 am
Interestingly, that’s what my yoga teacher said last week. “There’s so much we don’t know.” I had been spouting some strong opinions, and it was actually really relieving for me to be humbled by that wisdom.
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