acute sensitivity
I was in a conversation recently, where the topic was basically about how our thoughts and actions affect others, favorably or unfavorably.
It made me think about one of the first principles in yoga, called ahimsa, which means non harming. It precedes everything in yoga, and is the most important thing to cultivate.
Ahimsa starts with the self, by looking at and removing all the ways one can cause harm to themselves. This way, true vision and compassion can occur.
Beyond the obvious ways to cause harm, be it physical or verbal, there are countless other ways we all do this, and sometimes we are unaware of this fact.
It is important, periodically, to look at our intentions, because while it may not seem obvious at first, we could be injuring someone, or even ourselves. Not necessarily physically, but emotionally, or energetically.
I am constantly seeing ways in which my actions affect others, and when I realize someone is hurt by them, on any level, it makes me sad. I really want people to feel loved and appreciated in my presence. The truth is, however, I can’t assume or feel responsible for what anyone feels, but I can certainly take consideration and become astute when it comes to my feelings, thoughts and speech, and think for a second where I am coming from before I act.
I think intention is the key, and for me, it is to simply come from a pure and open heart. At times this is easy, and at others it isn’t so much, and sometimes willingness to have a pure and open heart is all that can be mustered up.
The process of the mind and personal history is complex, and is ever revealing itself. None of us will ever be perfect on this plane. That is a hard pill for me to swallow, because on some level, that is what I still long to be > PERFECT<.
Really understanding what motivates my interactions with others, or my desire for things to happen, is important indeed. At the deepest level, and sometimes the surface, I know when I am being purely self interested, and self seeking. This is not always a negative thing, but I would like for it to be beneficial for all concerned. When I am in the present moment, open my mind and heart, I can come from that purity mentioned above, and my relationships can grow beautifully. Amazingly beautiful things happen in my world view as well, no matter what is going on. This way of moving through the world, does appeal to me in the deepest sense.
A lot of my posts seem to cycle back to central themes, and self or inner love is one that I return to over and again. I believe it is one of the most important things we as humans can cultivate, and as soon as we stop criticizing who we are, and become sensitive to what we really need on a soul level, then we can realize truth, love and abundance on a profound level.
In the past, I had always thought myself to be overly sensitive in some ways, and I deemed it as wrong somehow. I guess it is because of the way I processed information and events around me. Somehow I was unable to step away and give space to a situation. I would take things personally and to heart, no matter what, which was very self centered. In this self centered place, I could not possibly see another, or see how my actions were affecting people. Even today, I can subtly do this if I am not in a clear place. Some things take time to shift.
In changing my perspective, I see sensitivity in a different context. Now I am grateful that I am so sensitive, because it is the very thing that makes me intuitive, creative and connected. The more I step out of my fear, the more in tune I feel, and the more content I feel. This allows me to love more, and love is what I truly want to radiate.





