arline jernigan

It has been raining for quite a while now. It has been beautiful in moments, having a respite here and there, to give a moment for the sun to express itself and to say, in its warm tacit way, “take a breath, there is more to clean here.”

The air does smell sweet right now, and there is a lot of growth potential. There is a lot of beauty and growing, and even the weeds look lush in moments.

My back yard needs tending in a very big way. I fee a little overwhelmed by this, as there is some major cleaning to do. I will have to either invest in some tools and go into the project with random knowledge of how to deal with my mess, or I will have to get help. I could do both, and probably will. I have this tendency to think that I have to work really hard, in every way shape and form, and then feel exhausted, because rather than cultivating and enhancing I want to upheave and fix what ever it is that I believe is ugly or ineffective, right this minute.

This way of thinking leads to procrastination, because I simply cant fix everything, not in the way I would have it to be at any rate, which is beyond perfection.

I have decided that for today, there is nothing to “fix”, and that things are beautiful as they are.
I am alive and breathing, and for that I am grateful.

It is getting late, and I should head up to bed, but I wanted to put some energy into my journal.

So… More later, with the journal and with other parts of this website. It is getting ready to be revamped, like my yard.

love and hugs
Arline

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