Hidden treasures
I don’t even know where to start today.
I have so much swirling around in my head, but it is in the best of ways. So much is imminent, and it is bring me great excitement, I can’t believe how blessed I am.
I have been looking at all of the gifts that have been given to me lately, and there have been many.
Gifts in all forms.
My mind is on receiving today. I think it is important to be open to what ever comes your way, which is not always easy. Sometimes people have a hard time receiving, I know this has been true for me, a lot. I have “in the past” had a difficult time with gifts, both in giving and in receiving. For some reason, and it is not too important why, I suppose I did not feel worthy of gifts, and worse yet, that I had nothing of value to give, or that my gift would not be received. Silly huh?
I am really starting to see that receiving, is a multi layered act. It allows you to be humble and vulnerable, open to another person or experience, it requires self esteem, and it gives the giver a gift too. So receiving is in some regards, a gift.
I am learning how to see the gifts that are presented to me, both the tangible and those that present themselves as lessons, or blessings from the universe, and I am really taking them in rather than just taking them, if that makes any sense.
I am just so full of gratitude right now, and I am feeling it deeply.
I am open, willing and offer thanks.
November 14th, 2007 at 1:24 pm
love you arline!
i hope you are open to receiving, for you sure do give a lot.
i woke this morning filled with gratitude for my wonderful friends. like you, who are flying off to Montreal to do your thing, Valerie, who has written a freaking book! i consider myself blessed to be in a community of such strong and creative women. love you.
November 14th, 2007 at 9:58 pm
I have noticed this too, the funny thing about receiving in me. Before, I would always return any compliments given to me in a flash, without really accepting them, feeling unworthy or whatever. As my relationship with myself shifts, I notice this weird phenomenon. It was out of my own insecurity that I projected on the giver, assuming they needed a return compliment or gift or i love you too immediately afterward so they could feel good too- even though I let it bounce right off me. After noticing this, I have given time to let the gift I’m given, whatever it is, really sink in, maybe not always, but moreso. It feels much better, as do my own gifts to others, too… more authentic. It feels nice, a true receiving, like you’re talking about. mmmmmm.
November 15th, 2007 at 5:40 am
mmmmmmm is right :)
November 15th, 2007 at 5:41 am
Lorin, I feel the same way, and I am truly blown away. CHILS.