arline jernigan

I just want to say a few things about my grandmommy. She passed on to the spirit world yesterday, and is finally at peace. She seemed to have one foot in this world, and one foot outside for about a year. Her tenacity sometimes out weighed her ability to surrender (a quality, I often possess) , and she finally did let go. I am at once relieved for her, and miss knowing she is here on this earth. She will always be in my heart.

I loved her very much. There were so many wonderful things about her. Her unshakable faith in a god of her understanding was evident, and was very loyal to showing praise and offerings, and now her spirt is flying, no soaring with the angles.

I never heard her speak ill of anyone, and she accepted people and situations as they were, and never forced her opinion on anyone. She gave generously to her family, while asking for very little. I think, it was only at the end of her life, that she allowed herself to receive and be cared for in many ways.

For many years she fought her personal demons, and finally got some peace around them. The last 10 years of her life, independent from grandad, whom she loved dearly, were really pretty happy for her, as she got to do what she wanted, when she wanted. She stayed active until about the last two years of her life here.

My biggest sadness comes from the fact that I did not ask more questions about her life, I wish I had been more active in fact finding with her. I can’t lament too much about that, because there is no point, and it is not serving her or me.

Her presence was like an oak tree, strong and quiet, and when it falls, everyone feels the vibration.

She will truly be missed.

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