Isolation or introspection?
There is something in the air for sure, and there has been for this whole month so far. I guess it is true what they say about March, “it comes in like a lion and goes out like a lamb”. My spirit feels OK, but I am obviously in a place of introspection. I have been spending a lot of time alone. This could be, not dangerous, but I have a slight tendency to isolate, and this is not always good. Just because when I do this too much, I disconnect from people, and feel distant and even separate. I don’t like that very much. I am not alone and depressed, and I am not feeling too lonely, I just cant find anyone to play with. Everyone is doing their own thing I suppose.
My mind has not been on what time or date it is. Today is St. Patrick’s day, and I did not even realize it, kinda like the time change that I completely missed. St. Patrick’s day is a holiday with a “religious” reference, that usually revolves around lots of drinking and debauchery. Not interested. I really doubt that many of my friends are engaging in the spirit of St. Patty either, I just don’t know where they are. Though, in my mood, I am not sure I feel like playing anyway, not here in Memphis at least.
This has been spring break week, and people have been out of town or with their kids, or wherever, but not in class. This emptiness may be contributing to my thoughts of aloneness, and so I have decided that next year at this time, I am out of here too. Where remains to be seen, but, I would like to see some fun in that intention.
Actually, today I taught a very fun yoga class, and there were lots of people in it :). I love a big class because the energy is so wonderful. This is not to say, that a small class is not wonderful, in fact I am grateful to have the opportunity to teach yoga to whomever wants to come to my class. Some classes however, call for numbers and the more the merrier. I did feel very connected after todays, because we were all in sync, and everyone had such focus concentration (dharana). It was energizing to say the least, and people left with smiles, and that soft look in their eyes. Ahhhhhhhhh.
Connection is in fact very important to me, and will reiterate that I know I am not alone. In the time between starting this post, and now, I had a very good phone conversation with a good friend, who is going through a rough time, and was able to really be there for her. Then after that another person I know came over and sat down with me in the coffee shop that I am at. We also had a nice conversation.
Now I am going home, and I am going to read which is a really nice thing to do at the end of the day, when no one else is around.
Where ever you are, I hope you are having a fabulous time, and are doing exactly what you want to do.