arline jernigan

Ok I have had enough of the transition, I am ready for the shift. A shift in weather, in attitude and perspective as well as energy.

It is raining and thundering today, which makes me glad. It can start to wash away… and clean the air.

I think I need to cry myself, as I feel heavy. There is nothing tangible to “blame” this heaviness on, it is just there, and I am aware of it.

My thing lately (and this is in the “idea” stage), is to take the heaviness, and with intention, transform it in to something that is useful and powerful. That way, I can feel free, and be of service to others.

I think that intention is the key. What I mean, is instead of dwelling in my thoughts, I just ask that this energy be directed into something useful. I certainly don’t feel like I have the knack for this quite yet, or have fully realized this new approach, but I believe I am on to something.

I have been watching someone who has been putting this idea into practice, and from my perspective, I have noticed a lot of growth and change within her.

As I really pay attention to the subtile and even irritating things in my mind, I see again the layers of conditioning, but somewhere in there are some new flowers waiting to bloom, and are ready to bring new life to my spirit.

I know that life is a process, and sometimes I wish I weren’t so sensitive, but at the end of the day, I am grateful that I am, and would not be anyone different than who I am, even through all the transitions.

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