Stoking the fire and filling the well
I have not been making many posts here lately, because I have been in this very transitory stage.
So many things are happening in my mind and in my world as well as the world at large, that I have not known where to begin.
Last week I went to Montreal to teach a yoga workshop, and have a vernissage (art showing). It was wonderful! I went there to teach and to share, yet I learned so much and got many gifts. Gifts for the soul. I made so many beautiful connections. I feel lucky to have been invited, and will go back for more, as long as I am welcome.
In my everyday life, I feel like I have had to step back in some regard, to really see what is going on internally. This has been essential, and still is to a degree, but I am seeing the importance of really putting my energy out into the world in a bigger way.
I vacillate between feeling overwhelmed, and eager, though both feel extreme, and I am left confused and don’t know what to do with this energy. I really have a lot of energy!
Right now, it is about seeing and doing what is most important, and letting the superfluous things fall away. I mean this on all levels.
I am not quite sure how to express that statement. A lot of things seem important, but few things really are. I have some figuring to do for sure.
This is all so vague, isn’t it.
We are living in interesting times to say the least. I am seeing a lot of fear. Fear for security, our economy, fuel, that there is not enough. I see people reacting all around.
I am trying to stay neutral, look at my thoughts and beliefs, while figuring out what I can do myself, to make this world a better place.
On a spiritual level, I am and have been cultivating trust. Yes I have said that many times before, but the soil must always be cared for. That is meant both literally and figuratively.
How do I put love into action. How do I let the fear fall away? When will I trust fully?
It is about getting to the source, or GOD consciousness, what ever that looks like. Each person has a different image. No one is right and no one is wrong as long as that image is of love. I do have faith, and I will stoke the fire, and fuel my own resources to do what I am led to do, what ever that is, I don’t always know right off.
I do know this though, I have to start loving more. That is extremely important.
Also seeing that the well is full. It is full of resources, unlimited resources, and there is MORE than enough for everyone. I just have to tap in, get creative, and see a new approach to things.
More on this later, I assure you, as this conversation could get deep. I wish it would. I love others perspectives on things.
June 10th, 2008 at 12:08 am
I like your “well” analogy, Arline. I am trying hard to learn how to “tap in,” because I agree that the well is full, there is more than enough for everyone… I too am learning that I have to love more. The world is just not as beautiful as it could be, or IS when looking at it through love-colored glasses. Who would want to live in a world that was anything less, once the love-colored glasses are experienced, but for me it so easy to fall back into old patterns of judgement, or being aggressive or passive with things. ACK!!! PRACTICE is called for, I suppose!
I also love aligning GOD-consciousness with LOVE. It seems to bridge all religious barriers and brings all kinds of people to common ground in spiritual dialogue. LOVE it. It’s got to be the way forward.
June 10th, 2008 at 5:39 am
Yes it does. For some reason though, I too find it all to easy to fall into old patterns of judgment, aggression, and am passivity, when I need to act. But the process takes time I suppose.
PRACTICE is definitely called for. I seem to require a lot of it. Yesterday was a difficult day for me, because my mind did not want me to feel the love, fear was in the forefront, and It was like quicksand. The struggle makes it nearly impossible to get out.
Relaxing and letting go is a real component to the practice. A very important, essential part. Easier said than done.
Today is new though, Lets give it a go, again.