arline jernigan

Letting go is perhaps one of the most illusive processes I can think of. I tend not to be so great at it sometimes. For one thing, it requires trust, and for another, it calls for acceptance. I have to give up any idea about what I think a situation should look like with out question or revolt. That seems like a lot to ask.

Sometimes, I think I have truly accepted something, and feel like I have let the universe have my lament. I can even feel clear, weightless, and pleased with my ability to surrender. For a time, and it can be a long time, I move through the world with fresh eyes, ready to see new growth, when all of the sudden, and seemingly out of the blue, something or someone brings it (what ever IT may be) all back.

I want to grip.

I want to control.

I want to cry.

Why are some things so hard to let go of?

The universe presents us with challenges, all of the time, and I think we get many chances. We get to choose (sometimes over and again) if we really want freedom and happiness, or if we want to hold onto our old thoughts and ideas. This can be very frustrating, it can seem futile.

But it is not. I know this, because I have let go of many giant things that I had talons in.

I just need to remember, that letting go is a continual process, building trust happens slowly, and acceptance brings peace.

I choose freedom and happiness.

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